Waking Up Just in Time

It's hard when you come to a realization of any kind, especially when it involves the repetition of certain things.  The problem that arises is that you allow it to keep happening over and over.  Personally, for me, it became a continuous struggle while searching for a companion.  I would search and search when I shouldn't have been because I kept finding the same type of guy: sweet at first, a gentleman, then slowly they would change or the truth about them would come out one way or another.  I was trapped in an almost 4 year relationship with my ex boyfriend before I even saw what he was doing to me and  I didn't even recognize it until I left him.  Recently, I was seeing a guy and this time around, I noticed the red flags I ignored with my ex right away and got myself out before I was too involved.  Of course he didn't say much and I was like, well, just another user.  If you are used to certain things, you tend to ignore the obvious signs.  This time around, I followed my instincts and stood up for myself.  It's truly time I took care of myself and pushed myself out of my comfort zone.  Time for me to get my life moving in another direction: closer to a future that is brighter than I could ever imagine.  I just have to take small steps to let them turn into larger ones. 

Putting exes and the subject of failed relationships aside, I want to share some of my future plans I'm slowly putting into action:

*Moving out of my father's house
*Looking into an actual career, more schooling, etc
*Working more with my writing/art
*Searching for more opportunities for work
*Staying single to work on myself as a whole
*Looking into getting health insurance for myself
-Possibility of skin removal surgery after losing over 200 pounds naturally
-Possibility of the removal of a lipoma on my lower back
*Removing all negativity from my life, one day at a time

Now this may seem like a lot and it is, plus, it has been overwhelming, especially with the emotional pain of leaving the guy I was seeing, but, I'm trying something out to make sure I get all the above done.  I even have friends who are keeping me accountable.  For the next few days to weeks, I'm gonna write a list of 10 goals/affirmations that I must do at least 5 of.  As the day ends, I will write on the back of each page ways for me to improve to where I can accomplish all 10.  This will help me reach for what I want and will also help me stay on track.  Not every day will have goals either.  Some days will be designated for reflection to help me learn to love, accept, and be proud of who I've become.

Here was today's list:
April 17, 2017

Here is how tomorrow's looks:
April 18, 2017

These are just examples and they are working even though I've only been trying this out for a day.  It excites me when I can cross things off my list and even add on to it.  What works for me may not work for someone else,but, I will keep posting each day and if they were successful or not depending on it being a goal or affirmation day.  I've already hit 6 out of 10 for today so I'm gonna see if I can even make 7.  

I have more good news to come soon, but, this is all for today.  I hope this helps someone or gives someone ideas.  If anyone else may have suggestions, feel free to reply or comment. I am open to other options. Thank you for the continued suppport and God bless.